I believe that I have talked about this in previous blogs. I have a real problem with the fact that I’m not God and I can’t change everyone. But as I was standing in my shower tonight (my best place for thinking)and thinking of all the troubles around me…I realized one of my life’s ambitions. I want to inspire people to want better for themselves. At first, I know that that sounds a little odd. But here is my point. Lately, I see people all around me that could be much better than what they are. They are settling for second best, when really they should be striving for something better. I know that they can do better, but this knowledge completely slips by them. I want better FOR them. It kills me to see someone not be what they can.
On the other hand, I realize that I am not near the person that I should be. As my last blog can attest, I have a TERRIBLE temper, a very foul mouth, and a lot of insanity. So before I can become this “great” person that influences other, I, too, need to undergo some change.
I don’t talk much about my spirituality on my blog. But I am a Christian (foul-mouthed and hypocritical as I may be). I used to be very active in my church. Unfortunately, a few years ago, I strayed a bit. Then, when I tried to come back and get involved, I had my sins announced to my Sunday School Class. Before y’all go thinking anything horrible about my church, realize that the words spoken were true. I can’t deny them. But of course, me being me, I blew up and refused to go back to Sunday School. To this day, I haven’t been back to Sunday School. Honestly, days like today, I miss it. Looking back, I shouldn’t have gotten so mad at the person that spoke out against me (who did so in a joking manner, I might add…just without tack) I should have been mad at myself. But now, I have a problem going back. I know that I can dish a lot of sarcasm and meanness out, but really, I have very thin skin. I’m just not sure what everyone has heard about me…and therefore, I feel like a little girl scared of the dark.
But I need to change. I can promise y’all this…I will never ever be “Miss Sandra Dee.” But I am going to take some strides to be better.
It is my hope that I will have an impact on someone during my lifetime. ‘Cause y’all…this ain’t no dress rehearsal. We have one life to live (if my blog had a soundtrack…the old theme song to “One Life to Live” would be playing here :-P ) so we need to make the best of it.
I hope that people will realize in this life that money doesn’t give you happiness, drugs and alcohol cannot take your problems away, and that family and friends supply us with pieces of heaven here on earth. Living each day as if it were your last and trying to make an impact while doing so might be the way to “really live.” As a final note, sometimes, the smallest gesture of kindness or the simplest kind remark can make someones day a little brighter...keep that in mind...